Help?

I've spent a lot of today and yesterday deciding on what to make my second post about. Do I rehash all that has been said and been happening this last month, or do I start fresh? I was think that I'd talk about loneliness one can feel when being a step parent and being around the original family (the biological mom and dad and kids), but I'll save that for another post.
I still wish to talk about loneliness, but on a different aspect. Here lately I've felt lonely and depressed. I want so bad to talk to someone about my feelings, but who would understand? Who can understand the problems of being a step parent? I know a few step parents that maybe able to help, but the ones I know either won't be able to be objective or haven't been in the situation that I'm in.
Well I did a google search of "Step parent blogs" and I've come to two sites that I hope may be able to help. I haven't joined them yet, but I really think I will. They are: 1. step talk and 2. Stepmothers Milk
I think the later one is what I'm most excited about. She seems to have been in the exact situation I am in now. She was a single lady, then started dating a man with two boys, and then became a mom. I'm really hoping that I can get myself to feeling better with these sites. I can't stand this mood I'm in.
It'll be nice to know (and I mean by name) that there are other people out there that are experiencing my issue, or have experienced it in the past. I just really want to know if the feelings I have are normal, and how to deal with them. That's all I really want right now.

Well here's to hoping,

A step figure

The Begining...

Hi,

Allow me to introduce myself. My name is Lindsay. I'm 21, living in Kansas, and studying to be a sex/marriage/family therapist. You might think that I'm a normal care free 21 year old, but I'm not.
I have two amazing boys by the names of Matt and Chris. I also have a loving boyfriend, Robert. They are my family. Now you may see this as a normal family, but we're not. You see Robert and I's boys are not really Robert and I's, they are actually Robert and his ex-wife's.
Yes, Matt and Chris are not mine at all. I call myself a Step Parent figure, I'm not married to Rob so the term step parent isn't exactly accurate. But I know what I feel, and I feel as if I'm a parent.
I'm starting this blog because I know that for me, being this step parent figure is one of the hardest things I have ever had to deal with. I'm certain there are other step parents or figures (like myself) who feel the same way. I'm hoping to help myself and others deal with being "step"s or understanding "step"s.
This is why I titled this blog: Beyond the "Step". There's a lot more to us then the fairytale's picture us. We're not evil people that look to ruin our step childrens lives. We love our kids, as if they were our own. And it is this love that we have for our children that makes it so hard to be a "step". We have all the Love, Hope, and Best Wishes of a biological parent, but the title of a "step" and sometimes that can be hard to deal with...

With this, I'll sign off on my first post for now.

Till next time,

A Step


P. S. I can't garuntee that this blog will go anywhere, but I sincerely hope it does.